Posted by bent on June 7, 2007, at 17:42:34
In reply to how does the hospital work? *maybe trigger??, posted by bent on June 7, 2007, at 7:51:31
Thank you guys for responding. I guess my questions about going to the hosp were more than just 'curiosity.' I think I am trying to put in place a plan to follow should I feel worse. Which at times wouldn’t be very much. I would say that that 3 0r 4 times this week I have fallen into this near-hysterical yet short lived mood/thing/breakdown...I really don’t know what to call it. However, during this I get worried because I start thinking that I have nothing worthwhile. I don’t want to go home; I don’t want to go to work. I just want to get away from everything. I am so sick of trying. Just last Tuesday my pdoc doubled my Lamictal and dropped my lexapro (I am wondering if that is helping this moodiness?) I don’t think about hurting myself but I think about thinking about it. And when I do that I cry more and more. Right now I feel ok. I got home from work a blubbering mess (the same way I got to work actually). Most of the day was fine, but I was so bad when I got home I took some ativan and went to bed. But in all I am thinking, I have a therapist I love and she always welcomes my calls, why dont i just call her?? I have never really been in a crisis situation and not felt better after talking to her. Even if tomorrow works out to be a good day, I am thinking maybe I should call her just to let her know how bad things have been. And how it worries me a little going into the weekend when she may not be as accessible. Do you think that’s ok? Just to let her know about this even if I am feeling ok at the time. In my heart I know my T would be fine with it. I guess I just want reassurance from others.
Sorry this is so long. But I feel a little lighter having written this.
Thanks.
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