Posted by gazo on May 30, 2007, at 8:17:34
sorry to those in chat last night when i had to flee. i got overwhelmed by anger, not at anyone. If i didn't leave eventually i would have targeted some random person for no real reason. Things close in on me and the things people say start sounding aggressive or offensive.. even though they are not. Sometimes i miss the cues and things go badly, but last night i saw it coming. It's like knowing a vulcano is beginning to erupt. i have literally come home and locked myself in my room and just yelled for people to leave me alone until it passed. i am unable to process people at those times.
i am off to see my pdoc today, which is a loooong drive. i already know we are going to argue, we are too much alike in many ways.
it's an ok day, just pain, no emotional crisis. i don't know what to do still about that job, or the shoes.. i am broke without the job, can't do the job without the shoes, can't do the job because of the pain, can't have the shoes without the job. *sigh
it's an ok day, and wishy, if you're reading this, you may have founded the club, but i am the current president... i still suck.
poster:gazo
thread:760345
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