Posted by wishingstar on May 28, 2007, at 17:24:12
In reply to Re: whoaaa anxiety (work related.. long), posted by peddidle on May 28, 2007, at 0:11:09
Thanks everyone for the comments and suggestions.
Saw her today. The session went well. However, due to some crazy family things that happened today I had to call CPS when I got home. After CPS responded, she called me (twice), yelled at me, and hung up. Nice.
I know I did the right thing. However, I do NOT deal well with anger. The emotional part of me isnt coping well with what I just "did to her".. she trusted me so much and I just blew it to h*ll. I didnt mean to.. but I HAD to. I see her Wed after school and I'm already afraid. I can predict how Wed will go for me... I'll feel incredibly suicidal and think of all sorts of ways to get out of having to face this, including killing myself. It's going to be very hard. But I'll try to keep the logical part in check and remind myself that I did do the right thing (the other clinician told me to, and the supervisor agreed) and I really had no choice legally. This is one of those irrational emotional reactions for me that I KNOW is irrational but I'm pretty powerless to stop it.
Oh boy. What a day..........
Luckily I didnt cancel and still have my appt with Ginny for tomorrow. Shes not helpful with "real" stuff anymore but this is somethnig I think I can talk to her about and hopefully get some benefit out of.
And to think, I originally wanted to work in child protection!
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