Posted by twinleaf on May 27, 2007, at 13:04:12
In reply to Re: afraid T will go away (long) » twinleaf, posted by sunnydays on May 27, 2007, at 12:16:53
Yes- I was so freaked out myself, and desperate for support, that I don't think I thought enough about how what happened to me might affect others here. I'm so sorry if it frightened you- or anyone else. I'm quite sure it was a rare thing to have happen- just reading here for several years, there are so many more accounts of strong, caring relationshipe which deepen through time than there are of ones like mine. It's so sad- it all started out on such a positive note, with him saying things like we were a "good match", that he was "glad to have me as a patient", that he felt "close to me", and even, once that "it is a privilege to be your analyst". I responded to all this with a lot of trust and love. I think it was all true for almost four years- and then he seemed to collapse. My new analyst, despite being a colleague and friend of the old one, uses words like "very, very sad" and "tragedy". He's referring to what happened to the old one, whom he thinks may be physically or emotionally ill. And he is helping me a lot to overcome the trauma of it. Every week it's a little better, and I hope to be able to tell you all that i have resolved it before too much time has passed.
It is great that termination is not looming over you. And the strange situation of the chair change is worth talking about, as it's a puzzle.(his reasons and your reaction- which I think all of us would have- not just you). You know mine changed chairs twice during one session, so it may remind you of that. But mine was really agitated- not making any sense, really, whereas yours was functioning as usual- calm, understanding, supportive, helpful- just, mysteriously, from a different chair!
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