Posted by caraher on May 26, 2007, at 10:21:58
My T is retiring at the end of the year and told me she never gives "homework" yet is making an exception in my case. The assignment is to make a list of what I want. (She's leaving the details to me, whether it's one word or a list that fills a notebook. I guess the rationale is that it's hard to get what you want when you don't name it.
This is going to be very hard. I need this by Tuesday which is, ironically, the annual focal point of being prodded about what I want (my natal anniversary). And I guess my birthday tends to play out in miniature the dynamic my T and I are trying to address. My wife asks what I want for my birthday. My brain locks up. I think of things and dismiss them one by one. Too silly. Too costly. I don't deserve X, Y, Z... Too embarrassing to ask for. I go through multiple layers of filtration like this. Sometimes I take a bit of a chance and say something despite the filters, and am told it's not a good answer. Like the year I decided I really didn't want any "stuff" and if someone really needs to get rid of money send it to some charity or something. This was not greeted warmly.
So what do I want in life? Eeek!
poster:caraher
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