Posted by wishingstar on May 24, 2007, at 9:44:26
In reply to I agree with Fallsfall, posted by Racer on May 23, 2007, at 15:38:48
Thanks everyone for your excellent advice.. I appreciate all the ideas.
I've made appts with 2 new therapists and waiting on a third to return my call. The first is at the sliding scale agency, the second is at the hospital, and the third (hopefully) is just at a local practice. All women, which I prefer. They arent until June 4 and June 12, but thats okay.
One of the therapists first name is Ann. Had to be, right? Different Ann from evil-T-Anne, but still. But I'll only have to pay her $15/hr (sliding scale agency) and she has her LCSW and Ed.D. so I'm going to give it a chance. Could be good.
I know it isnt healthy or good, but I'm really hesitant to ask Ginny for any recommendations because I dont think I can involve her in this process at all. It'd be too hard. As frustrated and disconnected as I feel with Ginny right now, I really, really liked her for awhile, and it's really hard to consider that that connection wont be coming back. It just seems to be getting worse so I think it's the right decision, but it's hard. So talking to Ginny about leaving in those specific of terms.... I just dont know. I just want the old Ginny back.
I dont have a primary care doc or any other docs, except my pdoc, and one of the appts I made is at her practice. The leader of the IOP DBT program I'm in recommended the woman I'll be seeing there. I'm not really close enough to any of my past Ts anymore to ask them for recommendations. Pediddle, I know you werent around when the whole situation with my old T Anne happened... but I dont think shed be glad to hear from me! In fact, she'll only communicate by letters now (such as when I realized she'd been overpaid and hadnt said anything about it)... I wouldnt want her recommendations anyway. Not if the people she recommended were anything like her.
Probably going to cancel my appt with Ginny for next week. First, I need to start distancing myself emotionally. Second, I always just seem to feel worse when I leave there.. not because I'm doing hard work, but because I'm trying to hard to reconnect and getting shot down over and over.. and she just doesnt understand that. I always seem to forget by the next week how that feels and go again.. so maybe I'll cancel today so that I do it before I forget.
Thanks everyone. I think this is a big step for me. I cant believe I'm having to switch again...... I just want the old Ginny back. But if none of these work out, seeing Laurie 2 hours away is still a possibility.
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