Posted by TherapyGirl on May 12, 2007, at 13:43:54
In reply to Re: Weird Session)) ))Honore, posted by TherapyGirl on May 7, 2007, at 16:53:06
So we talked about the therapy interruption the week before and my fear that people could stand out in the hall and listen to what is being said in T's office. And how unsafe all of this feels to me, with it being in a church in the first place. I won't go into all the details, but suffice it to say that my father is a minister, I spent a large portion of my growing-up years in churches and almost everything I ever said in a church somehow got repeated to my parents (and then, of course, I got in trouble for it).
She still doesn't seem to get it. She implied very strongly that I need to get over it. I didn't detect any sympathy in her at all, which is very unusual. Part of the problem, I think, is that she likes this office the best of any she has had and I like it the least. And she seems a little defensive about it to me. When I complained that the woman the week before had obviously been watching the comings and goings from her office (because the woman said she saw the "other lady" leave, meaning her 5 p.m. appt., two full hours before this woman's appt.), T told me I was paranoid. Then she gave me some cockamamy excuse about how the woman could have seen the earlier client without watching the office. But it didn't make sense at all -- my explanation is much more plausible. Then she raised her voice and said something about me having to trust her and that she would NOT EVER work in a place where privacy was compromised like that. Then she asked me if I believed that. I told her I didn't think she would if she knew, but that I also thought she was oblivious.
We stopped talking about it shortly after that. I honestly don't know what to do from here. Those of you who have read other posts I've written about my T know that we usually have a very strong connection. But the last two weeks I just haven't felt it at all. No doubt if I brought it up, she would say it was me. But I don't think it is this time.
It is possible that the lack of sympathy is her way of trying to get me over the hump of moving past something that is obviously still being triggered from childhood stuff. But she is completely ignoring the 3-year-old inside me, which is a choice I don't have.
So what do I do now?
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