Posted by peddidle on May 10, 2007, at 15:42:57
In reply to Re: going backwards- gazo and sunnydays » peddidle, posted by gazo on May 8, 2007, at 18:54:35
Thank you so much for your support. I had to email her anyway, so I also told her that "I realized something kind of suprising/interesting/slightly unsettling/weird" while I was thinking about something she said that day. I know she loves my cryptic emails. :P
She wrote back: "Of course I want to know what you realized....I assume it is more likely that you will tell me over email than in person. So spill the beans!"
I wrote back and told her that, actually, this time she assumed wrong. I want to tell her in person, but realistically, that probably won't happen because, as she knows, I'm better at "show" than "tell." I think I really confused her, because she wrote back saying that I could still explain what the visual would be.
So, anyway, I've been trying to perfect this email for two days-- well, not "perfect", exactly, but just make sure it sounds the way I want it to. I thought about maybe sending it and asking her to read it while we're on the phone. I don't know, it's just the kind of thing that I want to be with her (or, at least on the phone with her) while she hears/reads it. I guess I could send her a different email telling her that. haha
I didn't realize that "screaming" louder to get what I need is a natural reaction, but it makes sense. Obviously I can't understand it alone, but mabye telling her all of this will help me to let her in a little more, and let her help me figure out the "how" and "why".
side note: my T just walked by when I was writing this. That means that she left for the day without responding to my email about setting up a time to call her. Hmmm.... I hope she didn't read it, plan on figuring it out later, and then forget about it...
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