Posted by Daisym on May 5, 2007, at 23:27:37
In reply to jealousy and meaninglessness, posted by gazo on May 4, 2007, at 10:58:58
I don't think you are a bad person for feeling jealous or wanting what sounds safe and special. Sometimes I feel that way - or I see a couple that is really connected to each other and it makes me ache. I've watched my best friend's husband look across a room at a party to find out where she is -- and he will watch her with so much love on his face...and then she'll look over and just smile at him. *sigh* I want that too.
It takes awhile to figure out what you need from your therapist and then awhile longer to gather the courage to ask for it. And some therapists are more willing to do some things and others, other things. Mine doesn't hug, sometimes I wish he did. But he calls...and that works for us.
I often feel like *I* don't matter - what I do matters, my functions matter. But the me that is me, doesn't. It is a long struggle to change that belief. You matter here, know at least that.
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