Posted by muffled on May 5, 2007, at 10:13:29
I miss my T.
WHAT is it about weekends???????????????????
I am all grown. All week I do just fine (well sort of), but I do not phone T. Then weekend comes and I CAN'T phone T, and it just bugs the hell outta me.
I am SUCH a moron. Why do I let this happen, why do I get so stressed.
And this last week after T, I been in complete denial, and I BELEIVE it of myself. But then it goes wrong. I thot I was fine. I confabulated ALL. That really I just a nut being nutty, but everything is just fine if I stop thinking so much, that I think too much.
But its crumbling.
I NOT gonna say NOTHING in next T session.
Screw that.
I gonna sit there in a snit and say nothing.
Cuz its all fake.
Unconditional acceptance is just her job.
Safety does not exist. She say she maintains safe space. But thats crap. Soons I go i not safe anymore. I am never safe....from MYOWNSELF. From my T even, she gonna hurt me I just know it.
My head is spinning.
Damn anyways.
Muffled
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