Posted by TherapyGirl on April 26, 2007, at 19:07:52
In reply to Re: little baby memories *CA trigger**** » Daisym, posted by TherapyGirl on April 25, 2007, at 16:07:24
I printed out your and Llurpsie's posts -- cut and pasted them and renamed the two of you "Poster 1" and "Poster 2" and took them to therapy with me. My T read them and she thinks you are both brilliant. She said it made her want to come to Babbleland (obviously, she didn't call it that) and hang out because it seems like such a fascinating place. I said, "You know you must never, ever, ever go there, right?" She said she understood.
Anyway, she totally agreed with you, Daisy, that it was an attachment issue. We talked a lot about how to prevent this from happening again. She said I'm probably going to always be attracted to this kind of person -- the hope is that eventually I'll be attracted to one who's healthy enough that we can both work through it.
I don't love that answer -- I'd prefer to not go through the drama. And it bothers me that current attraction could ask me to have sex in a bathroom and I'm guessing I'd say yes. T doesn't think I would. Or if I did, that the negative would outweigh the positive in a matter of weeks and I'd put a stop to it. I wish I had her confidence in me. She did point out that last time it took me 11 years to figure it out and this time I did it in weeks. This is one of those times where she's tickled that i did something healthy and I'm ticked off that it happened to me again.
At any rate, we had a good session about it and you two helped me broach the topic. So thanks!
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