Posted by muffled on April 23, 2007, at 14:56:15
In reply to T today **SI triggers**, posted by gazo on April 23, 2007, at 10:43:45
> well, i see my T in a couple of hours. i'm feeling more positive today, which is good, but i am new to this whole thing and i worry that we won't *do* anything on those days. i have never really had much therapy that wasn't crisis management of some sort. For months with my former T it was just keeping me alive and reasonably sane and fucntional.
**yup, been there done that, think I going back to that now....
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> what happens when it's not crisis management?**then you work on stuff, ugh, then freak, and its back to the above.....
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> i also have to bandage my hand. :o( i wish to god i had been stronger and resisted somehow. i just got to this almost trance like state and there was no thought whatsoever about *not* doing it. i dropped a ceramic dish which shattered on the floor. My trigger is glass. i wish i had chosen somewhere easier to hide too.**Yeah, it happens...don't kick yourself bout it.
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> i am not able to talk about that with him right now. Last week i wanted to because i wanted to stop myself before anything happened. It's too late for that and so it gets tucked away until i feel safer there. i had been willing, i tried, to walk through the hard part to tell him had he persisted... just so i could not lose ground. But it's already happened so why go there now?**Never too late, there's always next time...
LET HIM SEE YOUR HAND. Maybe he will ask bout it.....
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> my symbol of bravery isn't worth much now. :o(**Still worth lots for the times you HAVE been brave, and times ahead when you WILL be again. We ALL slip from time to time. We human.
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> anyway.. i'm sure he'll be nice, and i'll be nice and we'll talk about the weather or something.**Sometimes the most inane thing will lead to a great session.....sometimes you think you got good 'stuff' and nothing happens....T is crazymaking!!! LOL!
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> maddie, if you're reading this... i guess i'm still just cutting bait huh?
>Ya!!!LOL. Go fishing kid!!!!
I know its hard.
Take care.
Muffled
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