Posted by littleone on April 15, 2007, at 20:48:56
In reply to Re: Stories, posted by bil on April 15, 2007, at 8:40:42
Thank you for your kind words and for listening to my story. I was so touched to come in to babble this morning and see all these replies.
I felt real anxious about putting the bit about the dinosaur in there, but it really needed to be said. And it felt wrong to deny that part – like I would be telling it that it’s not acceptable. It’s funny having the dinosaur in my T’s office. The urge to play with it and do stuff with it is strong. And even while I feel those urges, I can see that they say very telling things about stuff I’m thinking/feeling. It would almost become a form of play therapy. Which draws me, but scares me. So far the urge to smother and hide stuff has been stronger than the urge to have my dinosaur gobble up my T’s notes or sit on his foot or roar at the other clients or whatever.
> You say in your post that most of your life is taken up with therapy – so I don’t think you are failing at life… sounds like to me you are working very hard at succeeding at it.
You are so right. Thank you for showing me that. The good thing about adversity is that it can really show up your strengths (eg courage, determination, persistence, endurance, fighting spirit, etc). And as long as those things are still pushing away and struggling forward, I haven’t failed. I am simply a work in progress, right?
I do have a journal to write in as well as a Comfort Book (I’ve put lots of stickers in there). They help a lot. I think it’s hard though because it feels dumb to tell your T your T stories. He already knows them. He already knows what he said and did. So it’s all those stories that I’m not able to tell. I know I could tell them on babble, but I often find babble very hard.
> Hope you and baby Dino have a good Sunday together
My T calls him Dino too! And we had a really good Sunday together thank you. It was a good day and he had fun at the special place. Although he is looking forward to hiding out in my T’s office again on Tuesday.
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