Posted by Happyflower on April 10, 2007, at 17:31:49
In reply to Re: How come my T face seems so bright?, posted by JoniS on April 10, 2007, at 15:32:07
Hi Joni,
When I first came into therapy I was suffereing bad from PTSD due to my past and my mother (who was my abuser growing up) was threatening my life and abducting my kids, etc. ( alot of my story is in the archive if you search under my posting name) I was not sleeping due to several nightmares every night, didn't want to go into the public because I was afraid my mom would kill me, she would also show up at my house, threatening me) I couldn't get a protection order from her because she didn't physical hurt me since I was child, so all the threats, etc, didn't count. I did file a police complaint though.
Well I worked out a lot of past and present issued due from her. Well in the meantime, my DH deceided to have an affair. I suspected it for a long time, since their was not intimacy beween us, but it was later confirmed. Well he refused to go to thearpy, and refused to work it out with me. When I had kids I basically stopped working at my career, I was making good money, almost as much as him. Well now after 13 years of being a stay at home mom who also homeschools her kids, I have no income and became to rely on him 100 financially. Well due to our area school, I have to homeschool them if I want them to succeed and go to college. So now I am in a loveless marriag trying to make it work for the kids.I have gone back to college, getting an A average, starting playing my trumpet again( i used to be a music major), I am exercising everyday for now almost 2 years. I have accomplished a lot from the scared girl hiding away in my house.
Things are stable for me, so I sort of started the talk of termination. Then he keep it going, even when I had totally doubt of wanting to do it. But I am glad he is pushing me, because I don't know if I would do it on my own for a long time. I will still have problems just like everyone else, but I believe I am able to handle them on my own. I have friends now, and am quite the social bee compaired to the shy reserved one.
So I guess I am okay for the most part, so I feel it is time. I do believe seeing him at the gym is helping me a lot with termination. Well I tried to tell you a very condensed history of me, so I hope it can help you.
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