Posted by 10derHeart on March 25, 2007, at 15:39:41
In reply to Re: update » sunnydays, posted by Dinah on March 24, 2007, at 20:24:01
I don't have any amazing words to say that might make you feel better. Missing a T., especially in this 'up in the air' situation, just feels like absolute cr*p. I've been there in the past, and it was agonizing.I wish I could make it better, I really do.
Of course you're not wrong in your feelings. Your feelings are important and precious. I shudder to imagine myself in your shoes, because I would be a mess. I think....it's the da*n uncertainty right now. You don't have your next session on a specific day, so you can't even start a countdown or anything to tangibly see how the days are going by, and that sucks :-( I'll bet when he's a bit better and lets you know of his plans to return, even if you have to wait a few days after that, it'll be a big relief.
I'm hoping and praying you'll hear from him again soon to give you another update. Those will help. His back will heal and he will be back, he will feel just as safe and kind, and you *will* be alright.
Try to remember, if you can, these sad, scared and frustrated feelings can't actually harm you, if that makes any sense. While we're feeling them, they seem overswhelming and everlasting, but they never are, and when this episode is over, the awfulness will fade away quickly.
To me, what the sadness is, is a beautiful reflection of the depth if your attachment and love for your T., so even though living through them totally sucks, they represent something wonderful.
I know this won't change the day to day right now, and you can send me a cyber-slap if you want. I'd understand.
stay in touch if you can ((((sunny))))
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