Posted by Iwillsurvive on March 13, 2007, at 12:58:35
So what does T do? What has she done? What do I need to do? Why do I miss her?
T serves as sorta a safety net thing. She can make me feel more safe, and then mebbe I can look at the stuff inside what scares me, mebbe I can let the kid get some peace, then we can all have some peace.
She teaches bout ways of coping that are good, so I don’t use bad ones.
She helping me understand and learn how to notice what I thinking, and whether it is truth or not.
Mebbe she can be a safe person in which I can let there be emotions and so I don’t got to be so controlled.
She helped me to know, mostly anyhow, that I not tainted. And I know that I not evil now.
I need to be able to let DH near. Right now I just can’t, I just can’t. I panic. Its very awful.
She seems to accept me, no matter what. That’s been important.
She teaches me bout God stuff, she has a strong faith that’s good for me to see.
I miss her cuz she’s nice to me. I am having to be extra controlled when she gone, and in some ways its good, but its not so good either, I am tired a lot. So I miss her safetyness. Kid misses the ‘nice voice’. I miss her as a person who I like. I want to get on with certain things, and I can’t when she gone, so I am in a careful holding pattern. My DH getting kinda upset, I need to deal w/that…
I want to poke her arm, so we can know she real.
Been 3 wks.
She be back in office Apr 9/10. 3-4 wks to go depending on how you look at it…
Mebbe I'll consider this weekend as halfway point, thats a nice thot.
Sigh.
Hope she having a good time anyways.
I will try to think of her having happiness.
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