Posted by muffled on February 26, 2007, at 0:38:17
I kinda got badly triggered, and there's been lotsa fallout triggers from that.
But I am doing OK.
I am doing all the right stuff.
Its a trigger. Its old stuff. Emots will pass. Etc.
Then I wrote that I needed to figure thots behind the trigger so I could deal with it, but NO. NO NO. That is in the realm of where I do not go. And I sure as hell not gonna even THINK of looking in that direction w/T going away soon. So I am continuing to do all the right things I been trained to do, cept I not gonna look at the thots.
I think there may be either someone else or a parts got a whole diff attitude or something. And the black rage is lurking again and thats alarming.
But I got all my coping stuff.
My T is gonna call Tues, and I will tell her nothing, cuz what would be the point? Just stir up a pot I trying my damndest to settle. and I want her to have great trip, though I not fatheaded enough to really thing she'd be too fussed bout me fussing really. She trained not to fuss.
I think I just will not answer phone and then at least I can proly get a nice voicemail anyways....
Am I being really stupid?
I don't think so myself.
What do you think?
BTW just FYI, I feeling rather belligerant......
thanks
poster:muffled
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