Posted by peddidle on February 22, 2007, at 21:42:24
Maybe it was just a hard session today. Maybe I'm just really stressed because of all the homework I have to do. Maybe I'm just really tired. Maybe it's just really bad PMS. But all of a sudden, well, actually, since my session ended, I just feel like crawling into bed and not doing any of my homework. I hate weekends, I get so bored and feel like such a waste because I don't do anything. I hate not having Friday classes, not because I love school or anything, but I just need to have a reason to have to get out of bed. It doesn't help that my session ended kind of strangely today. I was actually talking, and then immediately after she asked me a question regarding what we were talking about, she asked me what time it was. Turns out the session was over, so it ended there. It's not really her fault, she wasn't wearing her watch and the secretary wasn't there. But still, it felt weird.
I just want it to be time for my next session. But I also don't want it to be time for my next session, because that means it's that much closer to the end of the semester, and that much closer to not seeing my T for three months. She had to cancel my appointment last week... there was a huge snowstorm, and I guess the roads must have still been pretty bad by her. So I didn't see her for two weeks... after the initial upset about not being able to see her, I think the second week was actually easier. I guess the first week is always the hardest, and it gets relatively easier to go without seeing her after that.
A couple of times today, I felt like I was about to just burst into tears for no apparent reason. I told myself that if I would send my T an email if it happend, because I know I wouldn't [remember to] tell her next week.
I guess I'm just venting. I don't blame you if you don't understand any of this... I'm pretty confused myself.
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