Posted by wishingstar on February 7, 2007, at 18:42:39
In reply to coping *SI trigger*, posted by wishingstar on February 7, 2007, at 18:14:33
Oh my god. I cant believe what I just did.
Meant to send an email to a fellow babbler (regular email, not babblemail) about the cutting thing tonight. Hit reply to an email he'd sent me, wrote my thing, and hit send. Then realized I didnt send it to him at all. I'd hit the wrong email.
I sent it to the director of the preschool I've worked at for the past 4 summers. He'd emailed me to ask if I'd be coming back this year to work and I hit respond to that email accidentally.
I'd written that I'd cut and how it only bled a little, but it hurt, and blah blah, and it was very obvious what I was talking about.
I emailed him again after and said please disregard that email, it wasnt intended for him, things are ok and taken care of, etc etc... but oh my god. He didnt even know I had depression (I used to lie about where I was going when I went to therapy during the work day). I DEFINITELY didnt want him knowing this.
I guess its good that I'm not going back to camp this summer anyway, so I wont be there. But I didnt want him to know. They liked me there and thought I was very competent, together, whatever. He wasnt supposed to know this. I dont think he's the kind of person who would spread lots of stories or say I'm crazy, but still.
I cant believe I did this.
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