Posted by toojane on February 4, 2007, at 15:36:35
In reply to Re: Hospitalization, posted by vwoolf on February 4, 2007, at 12:53:33
> But I don't like to hear you say it. There's something wrong about it.
I know but I still wonder and ask these questions about myself ALL THE TIME. See, it's easier to talk hypothetically or about someone else. That Australian psychologist did not put dog collars on all his patients. He couldn't have. Not every single one. Why did he pick her? What was it about her? I wonder this about myself constantly.
Why did those things happen to me in the hospital? It was a hospital! Aren't most people helped in hospitals? I can't help thinking there MUST be something off about me. But then, in the hospital, there was absolutely no way that I could get away. Because they locked me in. So is it less my fault, at least that time?
> I think it's important to keep going back to the origin, to our innocence, to the abuse, and to keep naming it. Everything else is a consequence.I know that intellectually. I think. But I still feel very responsible. I want to know exactly what I did or do so that I can stop it.
> Otherwise we end up accepting a diagnosis of masochistic personality disorder. And that is not ok.Didn't women's groups block the inclusion of that "disorder" in the DSM?
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