I f'd up majorly, dont know what to do.

Posted by bent on January 31, 2007, at 20:08:33

I really messed up. Maybe I need to stop therapy with my T and begin with a new one to help me get away from therapists altogether.
My therapist doesnt talk much about herself, her life, stuff like that. But i have been seeing her for 4+ years and in the time i have peiced together certain things.
I'm such a loser because through "myspace" I found my T's daughter's profile. It wasnt realy hard considering my cousin and my T's daughter went to high school together. I did tell her that when I found out. She didnt respond much and I told her I was nervous that my knowing such a detail (even tho coincidentally)about her might make her uncomfortable. She said years ago somethihg like that would have bothered her but not now. I didnt know how to take that but we both seemed to get over it quickly.
Anyway...the reason I am freaking out now...I dont know why I had her daughter's name on my instant messenger. Why would I have done that??? Its been on there forever. So tonight my ferret walks across my laptop and sends her a message. Just some jumbled letters. But I saw that she wrote back, 'who is this?'
Maybe she just closed it and thought nothing of it. I usually just close weird IMs from people I dont know. But what if she looked at my profile that had a link to my myspace page?? Where it says the town I live in and that I am in therapy. Would she have reason to ask her mom about it? I dont know what its like to be the child of a therapist but I am thinking that they know clients get attached, etc.
I cant believe myself. I am so ashamed. I dont want to see my T. I cant explain this. She will hate me. I will lose her. This is such a violation of her life. I cant believe I ever looked up her daughter or put her on my IM. I suck. I know its probably slim that my T would find this out from her daughter but I am sure its possible too. I dont know what I have done. I cant believe myself. I am such a freak.

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I f'd up majorly, dont know what to do. bent 1/31/07
Re: I f'd up majorly, dont know what to do. » bent Poet 1/31/07
Re: I f'd up majorly, dont know what to do. youngaddict 1/31/07
Re: I f'd up majorly, dont know what to do. » youngaddict Llurpsie_Noodle 1/31/07
Re: I f'd up majorly, dont know what to do. » Llurpsie_Noodle bent 2/1/07
Re: I f'd up majorly, dont know what to do. » youngaddict bent 2/1/07
Re: I f'd up majorly, dont know what to do. » Poet bent 2/1/07
Re: I f'd up majorly, dont know what to do. one woman cine 2/1/07

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