Posted by DannaB on January 21, 2007, at 22:31:58
In reply to Re: Frustrated » DannaB, posted by Dinah on January 21, 2007, at 16:30:13
It's true in a way, I suppose, that things have improved. For instance, my funks are usually less deep and scary than before. I am still hard on myself, but I don't beat myself up like I used to. And...I'm much more forgiving of others and able to see them in a less "black or white" way.
But what I really want is to feel happy. Energized. Excited. I want to feel a zest for life. I want life to have meaning. I want a purpose. Instead, i just float along. There is no real purpose, goal, or love that drives me.
The only thing that would make me happy is being in a good relationship. I'm in one right now, but we are struggling to make it work and I don't know if he's as invested as I am (sigh). I need to find something else to give me fulfillment because one just can't count on a relationship.
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