Posted by LadyBug on January 18, 2007, at 14:19:41
In reply to Re: Anxiety/Depression/Therapy/Long » LadyBug, posted by Dinah on January 18, 2007, at 11:41:28
Thanks Dinah,
I did leave her a message yesterday and told her I have a problem with her helping me through something she's never been through herself. I know she can't possibly know how all her clients feel exactly. I know she's trying to make me "reach inside and grow to be stronger and have what I need to really leave and be on my own. But it hurts to have her push me. I've not even thought about canceling an appointment with her for a long while, but I'm thinking I don't want to go in next week only to leave feeling so alone and hurt. I will tell her that seeing her hurts me. I can tell her anything. I'm a bit miffed as to why she never called me back to reply to my voice mail. She always does. I think she's trying to show me that I must be independent and figure things our without her. Or maybe she's afraid she better not offer more advise for something she hasn't gone through.
I hate my life and I'm digging deep to try to find something to lift me up. My dog helps some. She's a sweetie. My girls are great, I love them with all my heart. My not real religious brother told me to get down on my knees and pray for an answer. So that's what I'm doing. I'm searching everywhere I can for some peace.
My heart hurts today and it's so hard to face anyone. I've had 2 friends call me today, but I didn't answer. I got an e-mail from another friend. I did reply to her because I didn't have to talk to her. I can hide behind my computer screen.
I think my T should be more supportive of my heartbreak instead of pushing me and making me feel worse. But I guess that's the only way I'll grow.
It's time for a teddy bear hug. It's our 10 year anniversary this month in therapy so I bought a "Build A Bear" to represent it. She is adorable and part of the saying that goes with her is "Don't be afraid to let your stuffing show." She has a few patches on her. She's my T bear. I talked about her yesterday in therapy.
LadyBug
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