Posted by antigua on January 12, 2007, at 10:57:17
In reply to Re: Reintegration... plz tell how did u do it.. ?? » antigua, posted by Scentedgarden on January 11, 2007, at 19:41:51
Well, my T and I discussed the word Termination on our first visit back from the holiday since I have been handling things so well. I saw my pdoc and his comment, "Well, don't let the little girl be in charge, You are!" sent the little girl scrambling into hiding, with all of our power. I was annoyed that my pdoc had say this--he's a pharmo guy and I guess CBT; he doesn't have much compassion for inner children and all that. He said my mind would use every defense possible, have crises, etc. than break that tie with my T. It was a defense mechanism he said. he made some sense.
Well, after talking to my T about what the pdoc had say, she disagreed (of course) and said the little girl certainly was to play a role; she couldn't just be pushed out of the picture or I'd be back to where I started, not listening to her.
So later that day I was laying down, trying to take a nap and I started to shiver and shake. It was cold in my room, but nothing like this. It went on for about 30 mins or an hour. I never fell asleep, but before I got up I realized the little girl was inside of me now, with all of her angst, fear and power. I've kept telling her that I can take care of her, but right now she really has the upper hand and I'm scared.
I don't know how it happened, but I know it did. I think I liked it better when I thought of her as a separate person because now I can feel her constant pain.
antigua
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