Posted by Barna on January 5, 2007, at 6:34:57
Two weeks ago I had my last individual therapy session after two years and a half. I decided to terminate because I had made much progress and I felt I could continue by myself. My T agreed and she was very happy that I made this decision. I was (and still am) very attached to my T and I felt sad for losing this special relationship and I knew it would be hard afterwards.
The final session was very intense and I will never forget it. I was kind of sad and happy at the same time. My T told me that she would never forget our first session when she took my hands, something that she rarely does on a first session, and she said how important and healing had contact been for me during all this time. Then I gave her something I had written about the whole process and she read it aloud. Then we sit on the floor in front of each other and she asked me to stare at each other's eyes during some time. This was very hard for me and tears started to flow from my eyes, and also from hers. After a while I took her hands, I thanked her for everything and I told her I loved her very much, then we hugged. It's very difficult to put in words all my feelings in that moment, like a pure love essence.
It was a nice therapy farewell. She gave me a present, a book called "Untouched: the Need for Genuine Affection in an Impersonal World", which I'm almost finishing and which I strongly recommend to people interested in this subject, and to everyone in general.
It's comforting to know that she will always be there if I need to talk to her anytime.
From my experience, therapy has been hard and it hurt very much, but it also helped me to heal some injuries and to be aware of many important things. It made me stronger to face life from another point of view. I still have a lot to learn, but this first step has been crucial.
I just wanted to share this, and I wish that all of you that have been hurt sometime somehow can soon recover and reach welfare and love.
Thanks for reading.
poster:Barna
thread:719501
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