Posted by muffled on November 26, 2006, at 22:44:30
In reply to Re: Has T ever audiotaped sessions? muffled, posted by happykat on November 25, 2006, at 9:28:55
> Hi Muffled :)
**Hi Happykat
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> Thanks for your responses. everyone on babble is so nice and supportive. Its amazing!! :)**Yeah, babble is mostly OK. Just don't get too consumed by it. And you goto be 'civil' or you get the boot.
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> I go to T 1x/wk for 1hr.
> Have you been able to work through any of your inner stuff? I know you said you dissociate in an earlier post. Can your T tell when you go away? What does your T do to keep you grounded?**I don't look at my T much and usu have my face hidden, so she don't know when I 'leaving'. When I've had a real bad 'blank', she's sorta partly talked me back, but really, it seems to take hours or even days to truly come back. But I don't do it much anymore really. Cept when I get freaked.
I have little memories of kidhood, so alls i got are weird 'feelings/emotions', and I don't understand emots at the best of times, cuz I'd shut them down mostly for a great many years.> Can you remember anything while you're gone?
Bits sometimes. Sometimes nothing. Sometimes everything, but it don't seem real.
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> I tend to detach, but don't lose awareness, when touched so the bodywork has helped desensitize me a bit and made me more aware of when I do it and what triggers it. In the beginning everytime she touched me I wanted to fly away and she would lightly pinch me or shake me to keep me grounded.**OMG!!! I think if she pinched me I'd smack her!!!! Hell if she weren't too careful bout how she touched me I'd proly puke on her table. I have tried pinching myownself when I 'blanking;, but it don't seem to help much if I truly freaked. It truly blows my mind all the touching you have endured. Thats amazing and good I guess. So longs she safe all right.
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> I can see how it must be really hard to work on inner issues if you dissociate. How do you stay grounded?**I can sometimes go to a split part that will stay. I can't consciously do this, but sometimes I do. Other times I just pretend I all by myself. Yeah, I guess I must be mighty frustrating.
I begin to wonder if I can ever do this at all.
Its too hard.
So welcome to Babble HK.
There's chat too, which is a good way to get to know people as well. Sometimes we serious, sometimes we just mess around and try and forget all our sh*t for awhile. HA! And you can swear on chat!!!And you can't get blocked. And chat is not saved, so once what you have written is gone, it should be gone from the internet, from what Bob said anyways.
See ya,
Muffled
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