Posted by RN320 on November 25, 2006, at 14:41:19
In reply to Re: Unexpectedly Having to Face T's Mortality....?'s » RN320, posted by Shortelise on November 25, 2006, at 13:39:32
> The first thing I would do is see whoever is taking his patients! Not for therapy as such, but for support. It's no betrayal to him, but soooner it's a testament to how much you are grieving for him.
I think that the practice is trying to figure out what to do- and my pdoc is going to see me weekly for now. He's really no therapist, but I guess it's better than not seeing anyone. The therapists that share office space with my pdoc and therapist are all very booked. I don't know how comfortable I could get seeing someone new at this point anyway. I don't want to have to face this right now- I know that you're right but is DOES feel like betrayal in a way. I know that my therapist would want me to do whatever needed to be done to keep me on track, and I'm trying to keep that in mind.
> No small wonder you are in a tailspin. I'd be a mess. I am deeply attached to my T.
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> Your pdoc may be telling you the truth. The prognosis for a very ill person can be good.I did talk with my therapist's brother yesterday and it's pretty bad as I kind of thought. He's had to have a 2nd surgery already and may require yet another. His condition is very critical. If he survives, it will be a very long recovery.
> I am so sorry you are faced with this. It must be horribly painful. ((())))It is incredibly painful, and it has forced me to see that although I've improved over the past several years that I'm not as better as I thought. It seems to me that the reason that I've survived thus far is largely due to my therapist dragging me along every week in therapy. I didn't know that I was that dependent on him, but it's become obvious as I started to unravel at the beginning of the second week. There's that and there's the fact that I have really personally bonded with him and the thought of him suffering is almost too much for me. As a nurse, even though I've been disabled for awhile, I wish I could DO something to help him but I can't.
Thanks so much for taking the time to write. It helps to know that others would feel the same in my situation.
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