Posted by Dinah on October 31, 2006, at 12:37:59
In reply to I experienced dissociation and lived to tell., posted by Lindenblüte on October 30, 2006, at 21:03:12
I've been doing it so long that it feels funny to read what you wrote. I do remember when I first started doing it. And how I would think back where I really was "Wow, they're buying this. Why can't they see what's happening?"
But over time it got more and more familiar, and easier and easier, and I started experimenting with variations, and I got so darn good at it that I overuse it to the expense of other coping mechanisms. And my overuse of it, more than the use of it, has turned out to be a problem to me.
Used wisely, it's can be useful, and is a pretty neat trick. You aren't damaged. You have a skill. What you do with that skill could harm you. But it's not craziness.
And yes, I realize my view of it is colored by the fact that while originally it happened spontaneously and felt more like craziness than a skill, over time I've practiced and honed it and to me it is now a learned skill that I have differing degrees of control over.
poster:Dinah
thread:699176
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