Posted by ElaineM on October 30, 2006, at 22:13:55
In reply to Re: partial hosp day 1, posted by wishingstar on October 30, 2006, at 21:45:10
It sounds like starting the program again would've been change enough, but to find the program changed from before (more people)...is like two kinds of change in one. No wonder it didn't feel safe. Do you remember what it felt like the first time - did it seem strange going from only talking to Laurie to being with a group of 3 or 5, as well as a new facilitator? (I'm sorry I can't remember threads unless they're right infront of my face). I know it's still different, but in programs I did the max number was 12 (not always that high, but usually) and the turnover rate was high too. And I remember feeling so drawn inside myself when new people would be added. But I found that a sense of ease would come pretty quickly - often by the second or third day it would feel as though we had all been together forever. Cause everyone's there for the same reason.
Sometimes I'd also think it was good to go through the same sessions(units would loop) with different co-patients cause each new person adds a new dynamic to the whole collective. And then one person offers one comment that you've never heard before (or hadn't heard the first time round) and that makes *you* go to a different place, see a different perspective. It's just weird how X amount of new people can make the same sessions/units seem completely new as well.
I don't want to push you, if you really don't want to see what another round could do then that's the right decision. But if it's the newness or change that's making it seem not safe right now, I just wanted to say that maybe that could start to fade in a couple of days.
But of course, you know what's best for you.
I'm proud you showed up today - even if you don't go back.
blove, EL
poster:ElaineM
thread:699190
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