Posted by rjlockhart on October 29, 2006, at 20:42:27
I am so scatterbrained it, at work i leave piles of stuff out and forget about them.
But here is the real situation. My mom says your not motivated to go to collage. Dammit! yes i am but im not being treated right! she took me off my medication, saying that i had problems with it, and actually, Dextrostat.... helped alot. If you read about why she took me off then you know. I have asked her repeated times that please will you let me go back on for a trial run. "No and Never" I will see that a doctor will never prescribe you stimulants again. She is overthe top, crazy, she cant take life herself, she know is thinking you dont want to go to collage do you? I Swear i have to something. I tried to get help from a psychiatrist who did treat me and know she is gone crazy and never ever wants me on dextrostat again.
I have been on Strattera (non-stimulant, non addictive) Wellbutrin, it doenst have the benefical effects of stimulants, in concetration wise. I dont know what the hell to do.
I am stuck here at home, feeling im trapped.
What is going to happen. Do i have to get a job with benefits and move out, no then she will go to the doctor and say no he has a history of abuse. I need to call the doctor and tell him what happened and he will listen, its legitimate, before she does this.
I am so disorganized i cant get work done, i want to stick my head in the toilet and leave it there. Nevermind, ill pass, the pool. Anyways.
I cant, i am so lost when im writing papers, i feel there is something not "stimulated" in my head. Low throyid? Well i am hell frustrated enough to post this post.
I feel, i cant do anything right now. There is so much conflict that will happen in the future that i am going to have deal with. I dont know how to cope with this.
This is my whole danm life, its not just a psychostimulant to help, its all of it!
I so glad i dont drink.... that would be another problem after the 1000's of them.
I wished everthing would just go good. There are so many people here who seem have more stable lives than me. I am holding on to a psychological bridge that is rocking.
What else should i say.....good night.
Matt
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