Posted by inimitable on October 19, 2006, at 12:03:43
okay i met this guy online a few weeks ago, we hung out...we ended up going pretty fats and ended up being exclusive after just a week and half...though we didn't even know each other. anyways, we realized we made amistake and now we just talk a little every now and then, but he talk to me about important stuff, that he doens't even tell his friends..i am fine with this, i like it, because for the longest time he wouldn't talk really about anything...but he knows i have had problems that i have overcome in life too and he says that why he can talk to me....but he only talks to me online, even though we live a mile or so away from each other. i am not good with online contact, i do so much better in person....anyways, last night he was telling me how he could just end it right now...he told me this online, and he got in depth about it and of course i asked him why and tried to just show him that i am here for him....but what i really wanted to do is be with him, in person, an hug him. i wanted this soo badly...and i am not a hugger, i am not a physical, touchy feely person, but with this guy i am different...and last night i soo wanted to give him a hug and i mentioned that to him, but i didn't completely turn the convo to myself or anything, but i mentioned it to him and he said he didn't want to come over (cause i offered) and he didn't need a hug....but i know when I say things like that, i don't need a hug....i feel, like yeah "i don't need a hug" but i know that deep deep inside, a hug would feel nice because i don't get that too often....anyways i don't know exactly why i am posting on here, just to get it out perhaps...this guy won't see a therapist and he doens't want to talk in person with me about this...he is taking paxil to help, but i don't know....i don't know. and this guy, i don't see him too often anyways cause he gets "moods" where he doesn't want to see people...so it depends on if he wnats to hang out, but i really hope he'll hang out with me tonight...anyways thanks for listening.
*inimitable
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