Posted by muffled on October 16, 2006, at 11:56:53
In reply to Re: this i. kid ****trigger***, posted by Lindenblüte on October 16, 2006, at 8:52:04
> Can you scream you lungs out into a pillow?
***Too overt, unless I am outside and anonymous.
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> Can you release the steam in a healthy way- like running around as fast as you can?***LOL!!!I was dancing and bouncing all over LOL!!! Dunno what was in that sh*t!!! LOL!
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> Can you "Self-Injure" using an ice cube instead of something that will cause permanent damage?***Sometimes I need to see the blood. But I didn't SI. If I stoned enuf, I don't.
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> Can you sit down, find a nice marker (black and chunky for your screamer, delicate and pastel for your other voices, etc) and write out a little dialogue between them? It's like journaling, but you can have your inner folks be penpals, instead of yelling and whining to each other in your head. Get it on paper. it might help.***I type stuff out on my computer. But that i.kid been writing some stuff I don't like. And usu. I read my journal lots cuz it helps me to remember who I am. But lately its just been weird reading it and I getting bothered by that.
So now I getting confused.
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> PWS- is that a typical thing? do you notice that stoned is more likely to lead to some kind of flareup in the busy-ness in your mind? More likely to have you thinking confused things? Does it give you cravings for alcohol? Please no alcohol- 10 years is such an achievement. And your little ones are such a very important reason to remember your commitment to pouring the liquor down the sink.***Yeah, I WON'T drink. To me drinking =suicide.
I rarely get high anymore. Just had to do SOMETHING. And it seemed the most innocuous solution to my problem.
I dunno if I ever pws before? Mebbe early on in my babble life? Really, I proly only been high mebbe 2-3x in last 6 mo.
Getting stoned makes it quiet in my head mostly. Sometimes I get philosophical. Sometimes I get paranoid.
Man last night I was FLYING. Went to bed and rode on the music waves. Seriously tripping. But I OK now. Mostly.
Sh*t anyways.
Till everything starts up again....
See my T on Tues.
But dunno wtf to say?? That i. kid of mine, is SO full of sh*t, and i don't want her to make T think wrong stuff bout me. Though my T is very cautious bout that, which is good. Dunno how I was so lucky w/getting a good T. She not perfect, but she good.>
> hope you're around some today, feeling better.
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> (((((((((((((((((((((Mufflie's grumpy one))))))))))))))))
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> ((((((((((((((Mufflie's confused ones)))))))))))))))))
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> ((((((((((((((loveable Mufflie (the whole mufflie)))))))))))))
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Yeah, thanks Li. From all.
You kinda made that i.kid mad, LOL! She says she NOT grumpy!!! LOL!
See ya, Take care,
Muffled
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