Posted by sunnydays on October 14, 2006, at 15:22:06
In reply to Re: What's Dissociation? Li's experiences, posted by Lindenblüte on October 14, 2006, at 12:31:21
Oh my gosh, Li!!!! You described what I do soooo well, and soooo much better than I have been able to describe it in the past. My T says I dissociate, and we've talked about it a lot. Just talking about it and noticing it, strangely enough, over the two years I've been in therapy, have loosened it's power so that it's not something I resort to quite as automatically anymore. And it's easier to pull myself out of it if I do. But you described almost exactly what I experience dissociation to be. I wouldn't worry about it. My T also describes it as a protective thing. I really don't like it a lot of the time, because I WANT to be able to feel, and I hate feeling so disconnected, but my T says it will come when my psyche is ready to handle the emotions and that for now there's no reason to push myself to overcome it. But now that we've been noticing it for a while and I try a little bit for it not to happen in therapy, it really has gotten so much better. Although it is definitely still present in some areas of my life.
Oh my gosh! This is just so amazing for me. I was trying to describe to a friend what it felt like for me the other day and she just couldn't relate and tried, but didn't quite get the essence of what it is I experience. And you just described it so perfectly! Thank you so much. And let yourself take the time you need. The dissociation is there for a reason, and as you get stronger and stronger it will start to lift as you become more able to handle whatever it is protecting you from. It's frustratingly slow, but it'll happen.
sunnydays
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