Posted by sunnydays on September 17, 2006, at 10:41:23
In reply to Re: is this ok?, posted by Daisym on September 17, 2006, at 0:28:32
Thank you. My therapist says it's normal, too, but I have such a hard time actually feeling that it's okay. Won't I be too much? Won't he get sick of me? I think I might die from embarrassment if the feelings shifted, although it would be interesting. I'm kind of a freak because I'm 20 and I've never had a boyfriend at all, so I'd rather I felt that way about someone my own age (although the key would be for him to feel the same way back...). But I suppose anything can happen. Plus, my T is a little old for that to happen (he's old enough to be my father) -- although he said a long time ago that it would be normal if that were to happen, that it's happened to him with a therapist much older than himself in his therapy. He really does try to make it okay for me to feel whatever I am feeling. It's just my own fears and worries that seem to throw a wrench in everything.
And your last line was just so perfect. It is really really hard. It's the fact that I'll be okay that I have a hard time believing. And he is good, so I have to try to trust that, I guess. But it's so hard! (my T is really trying to get me stop saying that and to put a feeling to it, like I'm sad or angry that I have to do this or something... but that's awfully hard too).
sunnydays
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