Posted by llrrrpp on September 9, 2006, at 11:38:00
In reply to Today was so hard..., posted by finelinebob on September 9, 2006, at 4:00:21
Hi Finelinebob,
This sounds so difficult. There's no way you can anticipate how these things are going to feel, even in the very next moment. It would be a nice illusion if we could fight the intruder back, or just to go with the flow somehow. For me, I get scared sometimes that the "intruder" as you call it is actually "the REAL llrrrpp" and that my fight against myself will result in my complete psychological annihilation. The struggle to stay healthy and safe overwhelms me too.Change only the name and this story will be about you. "Mutato nomine de te fabula narratur"
babble-mail me if you're dying to know the source.
I'm not sure if you're a cyber hugger, but here are some hugs for you (((FLB))). If you're not a hugger, send them back to me, and I'll hug myself.
I'm glad you've got a nice music lesson to look forward to. I hope you can get a little comfort until then too, pharmaceutical or otherwise.
I'm sending you a limosine to take you to a comfortable place. somewhere far away, but only a short trip required. Someplace where your mind can rest, and stop the constant vigilance.
That kind of vigilance and self-monitoring is exhausting, but not the right kind of exhausting. Can you maybe get in a brief, intense exercise session? Something dumb like running around the block, or up 10 flights of stairs full sprint?
Sometimes I find that when my body is trying to operate near the maximum heartrate, there is not enough oxygen left to support mental parasites.
Sending you comfort vibes ~~~~~~~~~ and hoping that your lesson tommorrow is lovely and timeless.
-ll
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