Posted by happyflower on September 2, 2006, at 15:09:29
I know my T is going to ask me about this on Tuedsay because I brought it up when my session was done last time. I had to add one last zinger, you know. LOL
I don't think I love my allergist, he is cute, but I just don't like him all that much. What he is doing is wrong, what my DH was/is doing is wrong, so why should I lower myself to their level?
Beside I am way too busy to have another relationship and I don't want a guy to interfer with me trying to better my life (college) I did that before and now I regret that. I need to take care of me first, my sex life will have to be put on hold for now. What I need is love and someday this happyflower will find it. But right now I need to put down some stronger roots to hold all that love when it someday comes my way. Don't you think I will be a prettier flower when I have stronger roots?
In my Abnormal Pysch class we learned that one of the components for self esteem is realizing that nobody completes you . You have to be happy with yourself, nobody can make you happy. So I am going to complete myself. Yup, I am going to try.I am so happy about being in the orchestra, I can't wait for rehearsal. Playing with an orchestra really changes me, it is so orgasmic, you really feel the music, the vibrations, the beauty. It is hard to explain, but I feel it inside. I need to play music, I think I really do. My T is right, there IS something about me playing. He saw it change me, and now I think I can believe him. This was meant to be. ;-)
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