Posted by Jost on September 2, 2006, at 5:40:44
Had a dream about being in a house by myself at night.
At the beginning, people came and said that I had ordered an expensive trip to an island ( think) which they were delivering. I was supposed to pay extra for the delivery. I didn't want the trip, but felt that Ihad to pay to prove I was okay, but it wasn't fair, esp. the extra charge, when I didn't want the tickets.
Then I was alone in the house, and worried about my SigO being angry that I'd ordered expensive tichets that I didnt' want. As usual Iwould be disppointing--getting SO interested, then losing interest, plus money--
SO came home and I mentioned payment. I had somewhat agreed topay, then changed by mind. The people had left, but I was worried about what to do. SO was annoyed, but took bill. We were downstairs and the back door was open. I could hear wolves calling out somewhere outside. I was afraid they would come through the door and find me. I kept saying, let's close the door, but for some reason, SO wasn't worried. but dismissed danger offhandedly. I went upstairs, which was safer, although entirley safe. SO was downstairs. I kept hoping the door would be closed, but we would always be keeping that door open. I knew that the wolves would come and felt that I wouldn't be able to proect myself from them.
My mother was in the house, visiting. She and I had unfriendly encounter. Something about packages, or my not handling something.
Also there was a large library room, or possibly part of hospital. A science professor or MD came out and was explaining to my SO that sometimes when people were losing it, they started talking about alien planets, or visiting alient planets. She seemed to be referring to SO's mother. I started to laugh, which seemed inappropriate, because they were very serious. But I said, your mother never talks about that! And SO said yes she did. And I said, When? He said she had the last time he saw her. Just briefly. I made some sort of comment to lessen the weirdness of her comment. The doctor seemed to look at me very suspciously, due to my inappropriate loudness and conversational tone. I felt terribly uncomfortable, as if I had said and done the wrong thing.
Then I left. I kept looking downstairs, afraid that wolves were in the house and would come up.
Eventually, my SO came up and said he was going to to down and close the door, because I wanted him to. But I knew it would aways be open a lot. He thought it was no big deal. Plus the wolves would always be there.
He said my sister was just like my mother, and was sleeping upstairs too, and making a lot of sounds, and never coming out of her room. I was relieved that I'm nothing like my sister, and I wouldn't do that.
I kept thinking about how easy it would be at any time for the wolves to break into out house. And how afraid I was to do what needed to be done--like closing the door. I was afraid I would see a wolf, but also that closing the door once would only mean it would be open a lot and evnetually a wolf would find me; instead I wanted to get away from that house, and find another place to live.
I didn't feel as is if I had the right to do that.We sat with my mother, who was pointed out things I'd done wrong. And Debbie was going to ahve everything going for her, and I realized that Debbie had stolen a lot of money from my pocket. She wasn't afraid of wolves, either.
Mostly felt panic, where you feel paralyzed, or backed into a corner,
Jost
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