Posted by finelinebob on August 16, 2006, at 0:35:08
I mean, other than financial reasons ... putting that aside ...
I could probably walk away from my therapist right now and tho I'd miss her and her 2 African Grey Parrots and her 2 cats; my meds have me stabilized, I'm loving my new job, I've got a few issues but they're manageable. yada yada yada.
I've been seeing her at least once a week for about 10 years now. In that time, I've seen a kind of progression in our work:
1) Talking about what I **needed** to talk about when we just started,
2) Talking about what I **wanted** to talk about, after that was addressedEventually, we reached a level of trust where:
3) We started talking about the things I did **not** want to talk about.
Geez, was that hard. I'd have to force my jaw open to get the words out, and sometimes it would take 5-10 minutes to do it. And part of me would be SO angry that I told someone else something that "should" have remained unexamined.But once we got good at that
4) we started talking about things I would **not** even let myself remember without getting some issues at level (3) out in the open.... and about then I found myself one block away from the WTC right after the second plane hit WTC2. Whole new set of issues that I didn't really need, thankyouverymuch.
Anyway, the point (and there is one) is that I can manage. But she won't let me settle for being able to manage, and I agree. She wants to see me living a health life: mentally, physically, socially, whatever. So even though I have issues left to face (especially in the next month), she feels it's time to accentuate the positive since we've done a pretty good job to eliminate the negative. Try to get me to latch on to the affirmative and not settle for any of this Mr. In-Between stuff if I just stopped today.
Curiousity here, not animosity:
If you are looking towards terminating, do you feel like a hatchling getting pushed out of the nest to fly on your own? do you really feel you've hit some limit that can't be passed with your current T?
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