Posted by antigua on August 4, 2006, at 8:17:59
I saw my Pdoc last night. He used to just prescribe meds but now he seems to be wanting to get into therapy w/me, which is o.k., I could use another point of view.
In any case, it was difficult to say the least. I wrote in my last post about wanting to try hypnotism and my T agreeing. My Pdoc, naturally, does not think it's a good idea, because he believes that any memories that would come forth would mostly likely be false, just as has been already discussed on this board.
Anyway, I didn't tell him I was thinking about the hypnosis seriously, that's not what our conversation was about. I've mentioned before that I believe/know that I have a puzzle piece missing to my abuse, to my memory. His take on this what that I was wrong, and I was retraumatizing myself by continuing to believe it. As long as I believed it, I would forever be in the traumatization cycle. Furthermore, there is no treatment whatsoever for dealing with this kind of thing.
I was stunned. He said to separate out the "true" memories from this "fantasy of the unknown memory" and only work on the true memories. Well, I've been working on the true memories for years and something is still missing.
I left crying, because he made me feel hopeless and I didn't think he believed me about this "other" memory. As my T pointed out, in a way he did a good job of retraumatizing me himself, in me having to replay the denial in my own head, not being believed etc.
Any opinions? I know the Pdoc is a neuro guy, very scientifically based, so maybe he is right. But he doesnt seem to leave room for other types of treatment. As I've said before, if I have a dream about something and I'm able to pull out incredible insights, etc., I don't care if the dream is true.
Maybe he's right and I should let go. But everytime I try to do that, something happens and I end up right back where I was. Something is missing, and to be told that it's just me retraumatizing myself, well, that seems wrong to me.
any opinions would be appreciated. BTW, I am going forward w/the hypnosis idea despite his opinion.
antigua
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