Posted by cecilia on July 15, 2006, at 8:10:02 [reposted on July 15, 2006, at 13:30:47 | original URL]
Soon it'll be the 9th anniversary of the day my ex-T got me to quit by telling me she dreaded our sessions. She deliberately chose to say what she knew would give me maximum humiliation after she had failed to get me to quit by telling me "I can't help you, you obviously need to be depressed.' I deserved it, I was a terrible client. BUT SHE HAD NO RIGHT TO STEAL MY HARD EARNED MONEY AND PRETEND TO CARE FOR SEVEN YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!She could have told me the 1st month: "I can't help you." I know what a fool I am to still let it hurt so bad. I am nothing to her. For 7 years she was my reason for living. I would have sold my soul to be able to do therapy right. But I couldn't. She knew I couldn't. But until she no longer needed the money she kept collecting it week after week. Probably it seemed perfectly ethical to her. If I was stupid enough to pay, why shouldn't she rake it in. She probably felt she deserved it for listening to someone as unpleasant and negative as me. It's not like I had anyone in my life who'd listen to me for free. But I'm still a human being. Not a cash cow, however stupid and desperate. Cecilia
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