Posted by B2chica on June 20, 2006, at 16:22:12
i told my new T about my SA's in high school yesterday. we planned a session just for that. it was exhausting and i even cried when i didnt' think i was going to. (thought i was past that). but it's done and at least she has 'some' idea of some issues.
the thing is i've made a couple of 'comments' about 'mother' before and now she wants to talk about her tomorrow.
i'm just not sure i'm ready to go into that right now.i know it's probably not right but i don't think i'll ever tell her what i told other T. about the weird stuff she did when i was really young. but maybe talk about 'psycho behavior when i was teen and such.
i also haven't told her about anything of my brother or neighbor. and to be honest...i'm not even sure i want to go there again.
i think just letting it out for the first time (and last) was enough, especially since that last T was someone i trusted inside and out. it's not that i don't trust this T but i hardly know her. and to be honest, i'm not sure revisiting all that right now is best.i'm not sure why i'm writing this. i guess i'm not reallly asking a question. but maybe see what other's thoughts are on this.
i mean i can still have a decent 'theraputic' relationiship with her right? even though she may never "KNOW ALL"?
and who knows...maybe in time i might...but i really feel strongly that now is just not the time to reopen all that.thanks for listening.
b2c
poster:B2chica
thread:659312
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