Posted by annierose on June 20, 2006, at 12:57:51
In reply to Re: ANGST!, posted by Daisym on June 20, 2006, at 0:43:57
Thanks for everyone's support. My T did move my appointment time up by 5 minutes and told me today that if she is still there this Friday that we'll adjust it further. She sort of gave me permission to tell the client my comment #3 - "What a coincidence, we meet here yet again." T said, "Don't you think that will discourage her?"
We talked a lot about the "WHY it's bothering me so much". She tried several times to explain why she thought it was - first of all by weeding out the "Yes, it would be annoying to have to leave a vulnerable space and confront another person immediately," my T acknowledged that it was an appropriate response before delving into the "but it seems more than that to you .... " conversation. I think it was a good start but needs more sorting out. I told her that sometimes her questions seem that she is doubting my reactions or emotions rather than just trying to understand what I am feeling. Simply put, she thought I was projecting and she reassured me over and over that she was there for me, and wants to help me understand more fully what gets me angry so quickly, what the trigger is, etc. etc.
Anyway, it's funny, I am feeling better about it today, but secretly hope that woman is there again this Friday, even though I'll be leaving earlier. WHY?, you ask, because then I'll be right, the client is just lurking in the hallway. My T asked me what type of fantasy (and boy do I hate that word in this context) I had about the other client --- what do I imagine her reason is for being there. I guess I just thought she was nosey and was curious to whom the "others" look like. I've been there -- I did check out the "golden client" but not by lurking in the vestibule. I was way more clever than that!!
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