Posted by scentedgarden on June 20, 2006, at 4:06:35
In reply to Re: Life has been blissful the past several months » scentedgarden, posted by orchid on June 19, 2006, at 14:33:56
Hi Orchid -
Thank you for the nice reply...and for being honest about your travel schedule.I will bear in mind your advice and i will probably not be posting that much personal stuff on here at the moment as im just not comfy with it.still its very nice for you to say that you think its natural....i t feels very natural to me, feelings i never had so strongly before if ever, but im afraid it will just make therapy with her awkward/and uncomfortable for her...its fun right now and she obviously really likes me as she stares right into my eyes all the time and she laughs and smiles all the time with me.in fact i think she always looks lighter and easier with herslf when the session is oveer than when it began....i seem to bring out the younger, and lighter side of herself.the child in heer.and she lets her boundaries slip alot with me....justin some of the things she does and says...nothing major or unethical...just friendly like..... so, if i tell her everything and then she will need to back off and place even higher boundaries between us to keep her ethically safe..i know she will never abuse me, so i dont see the sense in telling her this and then losing her further to the boundary thing.....at same time i dont really want to talk to her about anything else either, as she's not in my life really and so by bringing my outside life to her i miss her so much in between if you see what i mean....
oh just realised i have gone on and on like i said i wouldn't do...i guess i just want to know your advice in this situation.I am in love with her as a woman ...and i love her as a mommy, the 2 are overlapping .....and it...well i dont know what else to say ....so leave it there for now.
Im so glad you have got the blissful part of life going, and i too believe it is from God and his intervention, as i know he is my best friend and helps me with everything....
post back if you have the time and if you have any advice for me please... GOD BLESS YOU ORCHID...
Bye bye - and thank you from,
scentedgardenp.s i always feel great after the session too..so great that by the end of the day im usaully a wash with tears as i miss her and then i cry for her like a child and that hurts alot but im getting through it. it she knew how much i hurt i think shed be very rigid and blank with me and i dont want that ...do you understand what i mean Orchid?
Thanks again for listening, and everything...
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