Posted by inimitable on June 14, 2006, at 15:21:38
you know, it's crazy hearing other people are all of a sudden feeling weird around their t's, cause i am too. at least at my last session (this past monday). see, last week was when i told me T that after our session BEFORE that, when i was upset about him having to say "it's never going to happen" (if you've read "sex after..." post you'll know what i'm talking about). so i told him the whole story about how i had been upset when he said that, and left upset and then had sex with my friend. and this week, he told me that it "was a pretty emotional session last week" and i said, "you mean the week before?" (when he told me it's never going to happen) but he meant when i TOLD him all that i had done. i think it was emotional for him cause he feels responsible for my actions or something. but anyways, so this session was kind of weird in that, after we talked a bit about the past session, then went on to talking about dbt skills, he was talking about something and then something he said COULD have been taken as an insult to me, so he said soemthing like "not that YOU'RE like this...but if a person were...." and i was thinking to myself how cute he was, thinking he would offend me, so rewording and all....so i smiled a few time during that session. and i don't know, things were just weird that session for some reason, no idea why, but near the end i smiled a couple more time, don't know why, and i was covering up my smile, as i sometimes do, not always but sometimes, cause i have a grey front tooth (it looks grey to me, from a childhood accident which made that tooth dead, but i bleached it awhile ago and doesn't look bad anymore) but anyways, he was looking at me and said "am i missing something?" when i was smiling and i'm like "no" and he said you've got your hand over your mouth, why? i told him sometimes i just don't like people to see my smile and he said "why? you've got a beautiful smile" !!!!!!!! and then i said, well, it's grey, and i told him the story about the accident, and he told me i had great teeth and smile and i don't need to cover it up, something like that, but the main thing is he said beautiful smile!!!! but i have been trying to not focus on the fact that he said that, cause i'll just think about him too much again. but i had to tell someone, also to talk about the weirdness that was in session, before that comment. it felt weird, and it seems like that weirdness is just floating around into everyone's sessions!!
*inimitable
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