Posted by llrrrpp on June 7, 2006, at 11:36:48
In reply to Trouble?, posted by curtm on June 7, 2006, at 10:06:59
> I'm not nervous about it...I just *****HATE***** being unprepared!! I am anal about having everything ready beforehand. I also like to have a good knowledge of what it is about.
Of course. The unknown can be very uncomfortable. But, rest assured that it will be okay. He will probably ask you some questions about what you do, how you're doing, whether there are specific things that you'd like to work on. etc. Just relax and go with the flow. relenquish a little control. it will be good for you.> When I spoke to him last night, I told him I was my pdoc gave me his name. He asked if I knew what my diagnosis might be and I said bipolar. I said I'm not sure where at on the "spectrum" yet, but I'm not concerned too much about it. I just want to feel better.
good attitude
> He asked if I had counseling before. I wanted to kill him. I *****HATE***** that word!!!!!!!! I said that I have done some research on my own about therapy, though. Grrr!! I will tell him not to say that. ok? :)
I hate it too. I hate the word "therapist" counselling, self-help. all of it. It makes me feel powerless and weak. I prefer to use the word "psychologist" or abbreviate and say T. It seems a lot more harmless, somehow.
> I said I think I might be more suitable for DBT than CBT because I am very resistant. I am also impatient. He said "You must have had some sort of therapy before if you know about that." What a fkn moron! I just said I didn't!!! I told him I do a lot of reading and writing on psych sites on the internet.He's not a moron, it's just that most people seeing the therapist for the first time are unprepared, as I was. I'm educated. I've taken a lot of psychology classes, and I didn't have a freaking clue what therapy was all about. It took me at least 5 sessions to figure out what was expected of me, and I'm about 3 months into it now, and finally getting to a place where I don't have severe anxiety waiting in the waiting room for my psyche to be picked apart. Also, a lot of people seeing the T for the first time are at their rock bottoms, they are like deer, caught in the headlights of life, and they are not coherent enough to know what they need, or ask questions about their treatment. I think you just surprised your T in a good way.
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> I don't mean to be negative, but I have a habit of being overbearing and analytical, even on professionals, and I don't really try to be. On the other hand I don't know if I can keep from playing games either. You guys know me. I don't stay on one path. I am avoidant. I am cynical and sarcastic. Then on the other hand (how many hands do I have) I can be so smooth and cooperative. You never know which one youre going to get smacked with. Most likely all of them in one session.
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yes, your T will be able to know when you're playing games, and he'll know when you're avoidant. If these are things you need to work on (habits, as you called them), seeing T is a great place to start working on them. It's kind of like a laboratory. you will start a new relationship on Monday, 8am. You can be yourself. All of you, and throw at him whatever you need to. He can take it. That's his job.> I hope he can handle it. I assure you he will be in for a treat.
>Sounds like you'll both be in for a treat!
Talking can be hard work. I had no idea that talking for 45 minutes once a week could change me so much. NO IDEA. well, I still have a lot of work to do. better get cracking.-llrrrpp
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