Posted by llrrrpp on June 7, 2006, at 8:13:55
In reply to depression, posted by sunnydays on June 6, 2006, at 17:59:04
Hi Sunnydays,
This is *exactly* what I'm going through right now. Okay, I don't have the day/evening cycle going, but I do have this "sadness that pulls at me and I have to work hard to ignore" EXACTLY!I asked my T about this yesterday. He says it's a good sign. It means that depression is no longer something that 'happens' to you, rather, it's a choice you can make. Yes, it's the struggle to ignore the sadness. It's a really hard struggle. Some days I don't have the power to fight against it, but at least I know when I'm going there. At least I know that there are multiple paths and that depression is only one of them.
I think the more practice we have at ignoring the darkness, the sadness, the easier it will become. Also, we can get better at finding out the environmental situations that precede the initial onset of sadness. Is it that work has more social stimulation? Maybe if you socialized more in the evening you wouldn't feel sad in the evening? Is it that work is intellectually stimulating and distracting? Could you take up a hobby in the evening, like tutoring kids or creating your own website, or something to focus your mind away from the sadness?
Well, I am only now figuring out that I have the choice. It's pretty powerful knowledge though. I wish you the best, sunny. Let us know how you're doing!
-ll
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