Posted by bent on June 7, 2006, at 8:06:13
Have you ever called your T when you were at the extreme peak of a crisis? Where you dont make sense, dont feel coherent, yet you call your T anyway? I did this yesterday. I was perhaps at the most out of control I've been in 10 years. I drove like an idiot, I was crying hysterically and I was not rational at all. When I got home I just sat in my hot car. I was roasting in there. I just didnt know what to do and I couldnt move. Thats when I called my T. She seemed understanding but i wasnt making much sense. At one point she asked what she could do...I said nothing. She said she'd stay on the phone with me and listen if I wanted to talk. I didnt want that either. I felt to stupid for calling her. She asked if I felt like hurting myself. No again. But that was it really. Seemed like a pointless conversation and now I feel so stupid. I almost called and left her a message this mornig to say things were a little better and that I didnt feel i made much sence yesterday and that I was a bit put of control. I just dont want to feel dumb about that too though. Yesterday my relationship with my mom and my fiance fell out from beneath me, and on top of that I think my relationship with my T is threatened also. I cant lose all these supports at once.
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