Posted by milly on May 27, 2006, at 8:50:48
In reply to Sorry, i not been reading or..., posted by muffled on May 26, 2006, at 20:04:34
> posting or helping.
***just knowing you're out there helps me!
> I just am struggling a bit. I tend to isolate myself.
***snap
> I just have a couple of questions..
> -do others have a part inside that wants to destroy them?
> -my inside Kid has the emotions, and I find it SO hard when she's around cuz I can't handle the emotions and i just want to run and hide or SInjure, or abuse substances, or get SI etc, etc**** i think that was happening somewhat last week with all the trauma that went on then, part of me wanted to destroy me because that was what i deserved. I could also see how it/she was pushing me towards hitting the 'self destruct' button because it/she thought it was all I deserved, but it was with thanks to babble (and mainly you) that it/she didn't get her way.
> -my T has family troubles of her own so I try to protect her from me and my troubles cuz I like her and don't wanto hurt her. She says I don't need to protect her, but I dunno how not to ?
***I'm sorry your t has troubles but YOU are the one that matters and she is right, she'll cope. it is hard not to play the protecting role and 'i don't want to add to someones burden' role when you are so used to doing it as a mother, wife etc but you have needs and hurts and she is there for you, use her.
> I feel pretty down and lost right now. I think my inside kid woukld cry if I let her, but I can't.
> Yeah, I feel pretty bad.****Oh muffy (((((((((muffy))))))))))
> Sorry.
> I'm not much good right now.***You're always 'good' in my eyes
milly
>
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