Posted by Dinah on May 24, 2006, at 21:33:10
In reply to Re: My mother - Trigger maybe » Dinah, posted by Tamar on May 24, 2006, at 19:00:57
It really was a surprise to me as well. Obviously she was making a really big effort to repair a long strained relationship. It was a good conversation, the sort that I didn't think we'd ever be able to have again.
And she didn't deny anything.
I also told her a lot of what was going on with me in the time period involved. About how I quit telling her what was really wrong because she never believed me (I guess it did sound kind of nuts) so I would just be rebellious and refuse to do things without telling her why. She said that she did know that I was unhappy even after I started behaving well, and she did do her best to find me a new school where I could be happier (and was). But she was shocked at some of the things I did back then, like stockpiling the meds she doled out each night.
She remembered a lot of stuff perfectly. Like how I'd hide in my closet, and the odd thing that my teacher who was later discovered to molest some of his students told her. I remembered that too. It was after he had tried to give me one of his big bear hugs. I put up my arms so my elbows were out and looked him straight in the eyes and told him icily "I *don't* like to be touched."
And she even respected my request not to go into her sexual experiences with my father. I sometimes have a lot of trouble getting her to shut up about things like that.
I doubt it will last. But it was nice to experience.
Laurie, I have always been sure you must be my long lost sister. My mother fills in her missing memories too. It can be crazymaking.
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