Posted by madeline on May 18, 2006, at 7:55:25
In reply to Intense Fear of Death - Some please help me., posted by Michael83 on May 18, 2006, at 1:01:37
Michael,
Hello! And welcome to babble. You've come to a good place.
I can empathize with everything you said and I can feel the hurt in your post.
Michael it's going to be okay, it's really going to be okay. Why? Because you are okay. Whatever is happening with you, you are handling it the best way you know how. Here on earth, among the living that's more than enough.
It is so easy sometimes to get sort of "locked" into black and white thinking. Something is either all good or it just is all bad.
Usually things are not that simple, and it's that gray area that can we can't stand - gives us all kinds of problems. For me, Christianity is one of those gray areas.
But, when you throw in religion to the mix and put your mortal soul on the line, things can hit a fevered pitch.
But, have you considered that this may not be about religion at all? But about something that else that was forced on you during your childhood that you are desparately trying to reject?
I think before you go to a priest, you need to go to a psychiatrist. You need to develop some coping skills to help you handle how you feel a little better. Therapy can help that. It really can. Are there resources available to you that can help you get there?
Please don't be so quick to discount drugs. Not all of them will put you in a stupor. As an adjunct to therapy, medication can really help you to process things better and allow you to think more clearly.
Again, welcome to babble. Please keep us posted on your progress.
Maddie
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